Kauai, Hawaii – 29th January 2013
I feel vulnerable every time I step into the unknown, to make a decision to go in a direction I hadn’t planned for. The suffocating grasp of not being in control, not knowing what is around the corner let alone where in fact this path may take me.
I envy people who can just wander without a map for direction or knowledge of what may be in store. Who shun planning or researching in advance and put their faith and trust in their ability to deal with whatever it is that comes their way.
That is the simple life.
Once you shed the burden of trying to forecast the future and let serendipity be your guide then each experience is magnified. The unexpected becomes a wonder instead of the expected being a disappointment.
Letting yourself be consumed by planning forms a safety net around you, there is a reference point, it protects you in the first instance. Enough so that you can gather your thoughts, then make an informed decision and proceed.
I know this is no way to grow, it is the path of stagnation. I must step outside of my comfort zone to grow, I must experience the unexpected to truly get perspective. Getting true perspective is the only way to move forward.
It is easy to sit still and stagnate but it is ultimately unfulfilling. I know I’m striving to fill my days with fulfilment and that means I need to follow the hard path.
I don’t know where this path may lead but I know it is one worth following.